For some reason...

... it is harder to get OFF disability than it is to go ON it... I am still fighting paperwork and such to make sure I get paid next time around. Keeping the fingers crossed...

Pick up one foot...

... and put it in front of the other. Repeat as necessary. Sadly this seems to be the motto in work these days. Yes, at least I am back at work and will most likely actually resume getting paid soon. I suppose I should just be thankful for what I've got.

Been So Busy :)

Really, I have been. I'll be better about keeping up with it next week, I swear! :) Must run and get lunch now. :D

Evening of the last day!

Tomorrow is my last day in treatment... I'm very happy that I'll be going back to work soon. Strangely though, I find myself thinking there are some things I'll actually miss about day treatment at the hospital. :) Wish me luck...

Feeling Useful

Today I helped my sister change the fill valve in her toilet. It is odd how this made me feel better/more useful. I realized I have been feeling very useless and less than whole since I've been home. I guess I need to do more chores around the house. :)

So much time wasted...

I realized today I've wasted just gobs of time in my life... I could have learned a second language by now, gotten into better shape, whatever. I vow to do something useful with this time in the future, starting now.

If music be the food of love, play on.

Sometimes I find it amazing that I get paid to do this. Oh wait, I'm not getting paid right now. I guess that explains the insanity. I wish that it did.

Las Vegas: Hell On Earth?

I spent the past Thursday through yesterday in Las Vegas for my sister's 30th birthday... an unpleasant trip that taught me the true meaning of my doctors' warnings about "too much stimulation"... I have no doubt that if I had ventured there sooner my head would have exploded.

We left gobs of money on the tables and in the slots there... probably not the wisest course of action for someone who is worried about money but La really needed to blow off some steam so what could I say?

Tomorrow is the big day where I try to convince my shrink I am ready to go back to work. Stay tuned.

Am I wrong?

Am I wrong for thinking that my parents' huge cash gift to my sister so she could buy a house, while giving me nothing, is wrong?

Feelin' Fine (So Far)

Today is my first day without taking Neurontin... I've been on this medicine for pain for months, and weaning off of it for the last three weeks. So far, so good. In fact, I have almost no memories of pain through this whole experience, which is pretty neat considering I landed on my head at fifty miles per hour. :)

The vision is coming along... I'm still wearing my old glasses and so far, no doubles except when I first woke up this morning, which I just attribute to fatigue. Cool!

Roll up those sleeves...

La and I are working on cleaning the two extra bedrooms in preparation to have them painted this week. It's amazing how hard it is to roll up one's sleeves and just dive into a task like this. It's also amazing how much crap can collect and how each drawer full of crap can be a little trip down memory lane. :) I found my first driver's license. Talk about a blast from the past!

I had a fairly exciting breakthrough today... my vision has improved enough that I can wear my old glasses. I'm not seeing double anymore, at least not as prominently as I was. A very encouraging sign, to be sure. In case I haven't mentioned it before, the part of my brain the merges the two eyes' images into one was damaged, along with part of my optic nerves. So for the past five months I've been seeing two of everything and I have lost the lower left quadrant of my field of view. I had special prism glasses that helped with the doubles... the loss of field is something I just have to learn to live with...

Work Avoidance Syndrome

I am currently fighting a severe case of WAS... chatting on IM, web surfing, doing almost anything to avoid work. :) I suppose it's perfectly natural but doing the work at home thing really isn't helping me get engaged. Not to mention the fact that the corporate political climate is currently insane beyond explanation.